Alright. Finally. A time to sit down alone.

Have you ever found yourself drifting in a swirl of memories, helplessly and willingly, until the current brings you to the land you would never recall? Perhaps an old song, a yellowing photo, a line in your favorite book, a brief look at Kennedy Road, a quick check on a forgotten phone book, or anything known only to you, is fair enough to trigger a free-fall into the bottomless pit of yesteryear.

But I have become afraid of nostalgia.
Because it is like a free-fall. Because you have so little control on what will be projected on your mind. Because sometimes you don't remember. Because sometimes, it is only blank white on the screen.

A futile attempt to weave up a fig leave blanket. Another vain try to for eternity.

Making millions a year.

One of the best point guards in the NBA.

3 Championship rings.

and marrying Eva Longoria.


THAT is lucky.

(Actually not quite.)

If there's another thing worth talking about after nostalgia,
that will be de javu.

Run out of time though, matsci midterm tmr.

Away for the next 72 hrs.

The Suns lost.
I know Steve did it for my good. I can now study my finals.

Thanks.

When the laundry machine cheats my quarters,
When my floomates poo when I am taking a shower,
When the dinning hall has shepherd pie,
When the Phoenix Suns lost,
When the vending machine doesn't take my dollar,
When my fridge runs out of milk,
When the frat house plays loud rap songs at 3am,
and the list can go on and on...

So many times we have challenges.
Tough ones, tricky ones, painful ones, seemingly unsolvable ones.
Things that touch your mind, emotion and will.

You think you can't survive it.
You ask Daddy if He could help you leap over the puddles.

And here's what Daddy replies,
'Yes I am all willing to help. But I help Christ alone.'

'I will help you because Christ is living in you. I will glorify you because of Him. But first you need to do something.

'What?'

'Do you see a wooden cross over there? Find yourself on it first.'

'and?'

'You are now lying on the cross of Christ and look at the nails and hammer in My hands? I'm gonna nail you on the cross.'

'Noo, are you trying to kill my father?'

'No no no my boy, I won't do nothing unless you turn yourself to me. Listen, this is how it works.'

' In you there are two sides. On one side there is Christ, My Beloved. But on the other side, there is your old self one with Satan. I definitely wanna glorify Christ. But I needa do something about yourself first.'

'You see son, when you sin, you become one with sin, which is just Satan. In Romans 8 3-4 my boy Paul told you that 'God, sending His own Son in the likeness of the flesh of sin...condemned sin in the flesh.'

'So are you saying there is sin in me Dad?'

'Right, to commit sin is one thing. But having the ability to sin, that is something that comes from Satan.'

'So you see why I can't help you until you turn yourself in?'

'Yes, because my old self is something that You detest. And the Cross could terminate it...Wait...but if I am terminated how can I be helped? I would just be as dead as wood.'

' Well son, in a way you are right. Your old self would really become as dead as wood. Your old passion, desire, preference and thoughts would really be terminated. But don't forget the power of resurrection of Christ. When you experience the cross and the termination of your old self, what's remaining is just Christ my First Born. '

'Your old self will ask nothing because it is dead and if anything from then comes out from you, that would be from Christ and it shall be answered.'

'I am struggling. My desire is still there, my lust is not receding, everything is blocking my heart to submit to you.'

'Don't worry son, I give you overcoming strength. Christ is praying and interceding for you, He's just next door.'

'Oh Lord Jesus. Lord Jesus. You have a free way in me!'

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So you turn yourself to the Lord. By faith you see you have been terminated on the cross with Christ two thousand years ago. Satan cannot overcome th cross. But Jesus did, and so do you.


ALRIGHT.
I SPENT TOO MUCH TIME NOT STUDYING. NEEDA HEAD BACK TO MY BOOKS.

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Spending my days in vanity.

I like grape juice better than wine.
That proves I'm still a kid does it?

Burn me, like You did to the thorn bush You showed to Moses.
Your divinity, descends on Christ's humanity.
Such a wretch! It's not a cherry tree; nor a flowering bush, but a thorn bush!
Which is so much like me.

My Lord chose to lodge in a thorn bush like me,
burning and shining, expressing His divinity in humanity.

and the Lord claimed it the Holy Place.

Ha Ha.